Thinking about Luke starting Kindergarten

As summer gets closer to the end, my anxiety rises with the thought of Luke starting kindergarten. I have never been away from him for more than 2 hours and I have never trusted any one to care for him other than members of the family. This summer has been an emotional one. I have no idea what to expect. I have no idea how many phone calls I will get in a day, if any.  I have no idea who is aide will be. I have no idea who is teacher will be. I have no idea how long he will be on the bus. I have no idea how the other children will treat him. I have no idea what his schedule will be. Compared to a typical parent of a child without a disease, I have a lot to think about. I am a very controlling person to begin with. I like to be in charge. Sending my son off to school for over 6 hours with an autoimmune disease is very stressful for me. There are days when I cry about it, and there are days that I feel good about it.  My mom says, "well you could home school him." First of all, I would never! He is fine, and I know he will be fine. It is me. I am the one who needs to deal with this. School is going to be the best experience for him. He is so ready to go. He can't wait to ride the bus (if I put him on the bus, I'm still debating). He is so excited to be in the same school as Charlie. I am very grateful to have a good relationship with the school nurse, she will most likely become my new best friend! I put all my trust in her to keep my child safe while he is there. I will probably drive by the school 3 times a day...but I trust her. think of me on September 9th, I will be a wreck that day. I will try to be strong but inevitably, I will put my son on the bus, and I will be bawling my eyes out.